Emotions...

I am so full of emotions....Happy Emotions. I'm planning my babies 1st birthday party. I can't even believe that she will be one in a couple of weeks. This year has flown by and I don't know if I'm ready for her to grow up!! I know I don't have a choice though! She is becoming more of a toddler now. I love her independence but I miss her dependence (do you know what I mean?).

I always knew that I was going to love my kids with all my heart, but I never had imagined HOW much. I can't even describe in words how much I love my little girl. My mom always told me that a mothers love is indescribable and that i wouldn't understand untill I was a mom. I would die for her and if I could have, it would have been ME on that operating table. When we found out that Madi would be born with heart disease I was DEVASTATED (understatement). My husband took the news better than me. He said that this will make us love her more, cherish life and bring us closer. He was so right. I cherish every second of everyday with her. I try to take in every new milestone with pictures, video or just etch it in my mind. I know how short life really is and I don't want to miss out on anything!

I am full of happy emotions because my daughter is HERE and she is HEALTHY and she is turning ONE!